I felt devasted! Hatred and pain covered my whole being I'd realized that I loved the wrong person But the lesson I've got gave me courage to stand on my own I'd never thought of loving again I was lost and I dont know where do I begin Days,weeks,months and years had passed I've learned to fix myself and move on I also have my own life Why will I imprison myself from the past? So I decided to fix and collect the broken pieces of my heart For it will be whole again and ready to love Yes, honestly I do entertain boys But my heart is guarded I do flirting but not loving And that is one of my regrets in my life One day, someone came and knock to my heart Someone I've known for so long He is the one whom I trusted after my break up Late night talks, sharing problems and happy moments Until such time, I felt like I am falling for him I am not ready to tell him because I dont want to be rejected again And I am not sure if he feels the same way But hell, I am so jealous everytime I heard a news about him flirting with other girls Who am I? I dont have the right to feel that way We dont have label but we are exchanging I love you's How weird boys are. We fought just like lovers do. I cried knowing that I am just the past time Never be the priority Never be the so called girlfriend My mind told me to stop communicating But my heart keeps on beating for him God, why I am feeling this way? I am desperate to have him but he's too hard to get He decided, we decided to stop And yeah, I agreed to it Just a few months there he goes again So I think he failed to have his girl whom he flirt with So here I am ,accepting him Without knowing that I will be hurt again But it's okay , I cannot do anything because I love him I am denial, but yes I do love him Until one day, I was tired of understanding It is not unhealty for me to be with him It is an one sided love I think, and it really hurts me so much. We see each other but we are like strangers We are not classmates but we entered the same school We became friend but never I felt that for him We seperate ways for our own good and for the future. I accepted the fact that we are not meant for each other. But I am still praying for him that he will reciprocate my feelings Desperate I am but I think this is the end of something Oh I cannot stop crying. Someone is shouting Someone's shaking my shoulders "Babe wake up, you are dreaming!" I opened my eyes, and hugged him. -sevenletters